Bitchfest

I apologize in advance for this bitchfest I am fixing to have.

First some good news, I finally have a court date for my divorce! The date is set for September 4th. Think about me and celebrate with me that day!

Ok, now on to the bitchfest. Let's start with the soon to be ex. He is such a mother fucking jackass! I had no idea he would be so damn immature about all of this. I wish he would grow up and face his responsibilities. He owes me child support, it looks as though we are fixing to have the house foreclosed on, and damn it, his kids are going to hate him. He refuses to watch them for a few hours if I need a sitter, hell, he won't even call them or answer the damn phone if they call. He didn't bother to see them this past weekend (which was his weekend).

My next issue to bitch about is money. I hate it! Right now beside me sits two bills. One of them is from the electric company, gotta love them! They want their fucking money by the 20th or I'm going to be in the dark. The other one is from the city and they want their fucking money by the 25th or bye bye water. Not to mention that my lawyer is wanting the rest of his money. I could easily keep going on the money issue but I'm not.

Now to vent about whatever is on my mind.

The possible "foreclosing" on my home. I need to start packing, I mean, even if it doesn't get foreclosed on, we agreed to sell. But I have so much shit! I don't even know where to start! And where the hell am I going to move to? I refuse to move in with my parents, after all, I did move out to get away. My boyfriend said me and the kids could move in with him, which I would love to do, but I don't know yet if it would be safe to for the divorce. I will be discussing it with my lawyer.

I feel really really fat. When I look in the mirror all I see is fat. I haven't put on any weight and I know in the past year I have lost a total of 65lbs but I still feel fat. And of course when I get depressed about feeling fat, guess what I do.... that's right, I eat. Stupid isn't it?

I think I have PMS right now. I hope I do anyways. I cannot go through having another kid and I don't think I could go through having another abortion. Say what you will, but I only did it for health reasons.

Ok, I think I'm done bitching for now.